Thursday, November 20, 2008

Killing Me Softly

"Arise, my darling, my beautiful one, and come with me." Song of Songs 2:10
Jesus calls us to go somewhere with Him. We don't just sit there and wait for Him to change things or do things for us. We have to come with Him - out of our muck and into His joy. "... I want to live in such a way that I continually let Him take me to higher places." "You know that you should heed His call, but you also know that change will be involved. That change can be painful." But that change is so worth it. But to make the change we have to "[carry] the stones to the water and [pile] them one by one on top of each other. After a while the water will begin to flow in a new way because it's been redirected. Eventually there's a brand new riverbank and the water flows with ease on a new path."

We have to get to the point that we are "intolerant of [our] sin" and as Kathy said (which really hit home with me), "let myself feel ' a little hungry, a little lonely'." But "nothing, absolutely nothing is worth losing the peace of God".
Our love for Him, our action, our daily lives are supposed to come from an "overflow of His love in [our] hearts."
God's desire for us is that we live in a "perpetual state of repentance". That we are constantly changing, growing, moving closer to Him and to His heart. We can't do that by stagnating in the same place. Keep a running note in your mind of what God is doing with you now. Think about the "kisses" that you have received from Him. What is He trying to show you? Some lessons are hard and take a long time (I'm going through some right now) but I don't ever want to feel like I am not striving to do and overcome all things through Christ who strengthens me.
He asks us to cry out to Him from our hearts, rather than wail upon our beds. Rather than wallowing in our sadness and mistakes let's cry out to the heart of God in repentance, for change and renewal.
From Seduction of the Lesser Gods " Without knowing fully what we are doing, we hide the things we secretly love and admire under our skirts, like Rachel, sitting primly and righteously on our camels, wondering why we are not whole, why we still suffer, why we feel unreconciled to the God we profess."

"And in the wasteland, a howling wilderness;
He encircled [Jacob], He instructed him,
He kept him as the apple of His eye.
As an eagle stirs up its nest,
Hovers over its young,
Spreading out its wings, taking them up,
Carrying them on its wings,
So the Lord alone led him."
Deuteronomy 32:10-12

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